Oh wow! Yes yes yes! I've done this for as long as I can remember. I am scared to say what mine are. They're very bad 和 twisted. I'm a very 生病 little girl. :(
4) I have changes in how I hold 我 too or how I sit sometimes or how I maintain (or don't maintain) eye contact, etc.
5)有时候我只是在一个内部的白日梦中呆呆地呆了几个小时。这是一场持续的战斗。叫做白痴做白日梦。自从我记起以来,它一直在发生,并且几乎在不断地进行着。
I "act out"我的白日梦,甚至哭泣,"get 进去"。我什至不知道我这样做。人们说这是我的选择,甚至是我读过的一些文学作品……但是对我来说,这肯定不是一个选择。它只是发生。这是非自愿的。就像我沉迷于这个内部世界/白日梦。从某种意义上说,我看到的一切都是真实的。
通常,尽管我经历了分离的感觉不再像"myself"感觉就像我突然"a different me"在某种意义上。我有一次拥有多种现实的经验。我的倒叙很糟糕。我有一点记忆。很难否认。
The following day. I go to work, get called into the bosses office, where I was presented with a ten minute long voicemail message of me talking to 我. In which I also incriminated 我 by admitting that I wasn't actually 生病, but hungover. Apparently this was the one 和 only time my phone didn't disconnect the call after flipping it shut. I was mortified. It was totally my own fault, but Aaah!
什么 you said about the author. I can't remember WHO it was, but I distinctly remember hearing an author say that exact thing on a tv or radio broadcast.
就像我立即tr出,只是* **消失了。它是无缝的。我对周围的世界(真正的世界)有半意识,但对另一世界却如此着迷,以至于一切都开始逐渐消失,直到我走了。我可能会意识到"snap out of it"直到20分钟后才意识到我不久之后才回来"leaving"甚至没有意识到这一点,并且实际上一直在做白日梦!因此,白日梦完全在我们的控制之下的想法使我感到困惑。
In fact I'm not sure if I've ever really even left a daydream fully. It's all very confusing. I think I've been in one my WHOle life.
I wish I could share more. But I'm so ashamed about these things if people REALLY knew what went on inside my head 和 internal fantasy world. It's very 生病. I am not okay.... And I still have not been able to figure out how to get this to stop. Maybe I will try mindfulness.
I've known many people in the trade WHO shifted their 适应不良 daydreaming into a useful, valuable, 和 wanted part of their lives... By redirecting their imaginations. ((This used to drive me insane, I hated it, etc...until I found XYZ creative outlet for it.)) But when it shifts from something destroying their lives to something enriching their lives? It became a very different thing.